Confused
These does not make any sense… but these thoughts I scribbled on my notepad… wala lang magawa…
1. I need another cup of caffeine to stay focused… Para kasing sabaw lang ang laman ng utak ko ngayon!!! you can only imagine…
2. Kinna pressured ‘coz everything will end up soon, that is why I am now sufferring from sleep deprivation. Thinking about the future is a major stressor and pain in the ass… You know the feeling na taeng-tae ka na but you can’t get it out (pardon me for being blunt), that is like you know you can make something out of nothing but you can’t begin anything… very similar to starting life all over again. Hay… I don’t want to graduate but time is running so fast I can’t even make habol…
3. I had a series of asthma attacks these past few days… more in the morning. I could have at anytime wish to halt the breathing so my pain will be lessened… pero my bestfriend, na itago na lang natin sa pangalang "Seretide inhaler" and "Ventolin rotahaler" always save the best for last… I don’t even know if it was ‘best’ to live anymore when you’re waiting for something na hindi mag-arrive arrive… I’m waiting for divine intervention again…
4. Andaming options ng buhay…. all we have to do is choose… pero super stressful to choose.. lalo na if the varieties were so lame that you don’t want to choose at all or options that were so ‘far from being true’ that you want to choose everything.
5. I guess love always ends up in isolation… each time I thought of being open again, I hold back. Maybe because I can’t see any significance of being committed to someone yet not committed to the relationship. How would you start a relationship like that, eh??! I’m crazy! I have more plans in life than being so involved with someone… The cliche blinds me and the blinding truth stares me on the eye: time will soon bring what is meant to be… =)
